Monday, December 08, 2003
i ve been trying to live up to ur expectations
my expectations for a very long time
so wad if u ve the highest post in ur stupid frigging company
i carn do it
no matter how many times i tell myself
i carn do it

u want me to be perfect
a perfect kid
i carn
i just carn

u want me to stay at home n study
i carn do it
im sorry
i really carn do it

it's over arite.
it's tough being an only bloody child
it's worse than hell
when u all quarrel i be the peacemaker
when u all be unreasonable
i keep it to myself
since young.
since being a fcuking toddler
damn it
it's bcum a habit

why carn u all just go away
just leave me alone
stop acting happy n nice
when i juz had a major fight wif u.
just stop it.
go away.
let go.

[I've said this before no matter how hard I try.
I can't stop being bored while this world passes by.

so

This revelation's got no meaning.
We've lost it all in hopeless dreaming.

AM I JUST LOSING GRIP??
Paint it black and just forget me.
THIS WORLD'S JUST FAKING SHIT!!
Cuz I'm making chance too heavy.

I can't stop believing that there's something to be said.
What are we achieving with the bull shit that we're fed?
I know why they're gonna say, I've lived to see the day,
this world comes to be, here's a resignation from me.
A resignation for me.
A resignation for me.

Don't tell me we're close to something,
that we don't even understand.

my brain's just too hollow
Some might say we're all to blame.
the outside's so unknown
I don't want you to complain.

I can't find the answers to save humanity.
I can't find my anger.
It's a resignation for me.
A resignation for me.

sum 41: mister amsterdamn