two pence

Saturday, June 07, 2003
oh god
u muz save me.
*bangs head on wall and dies*

|you walked away yesterday| 4:55 PM|
i wasn't referring to u at all. serious.
oh man
|you walked away yesterday| 4:26 PM|
n xcuse me!
to my dearest eeli.
i wan't refering to u at all.
u misunderstood everyting.
i really wan't referring to u at all.
|you walked away yesterday| 4:23 PM|
okok. things are changing
turning. and turning round a bend.
everyone has its own set of turmoil.
ok.fine.

maybe i misunderstood u.
im sorry.
really.
juz tt pple r juz so hard to trust.

u sae u feel insecure.
but u got sumone to hug to cling.
i dun. no longer.
im clinging on to tis last thread tt is keeping me alive.
at least till now.
i give myself the choice and the chance to survive.
will u. will u.
can u. can u.

dun keep tinking of giving up.
cos it's harder to pick up the pieces where u left em
sum may already be missing.

[ so many pple like me
put so much trust in all your lies
so concerned with what you think
to just say what we feel inside

so many pple like me
walk on eggshells all day long
all i noe is tt all i want
is to feel like im not stepped on]

|you walked away yesterday| 4:15 PM|

Friday, June 06, 2003
i am wad i am.
nobody changes me.
cos tis is me. the real me.
u ve no authority.
i will be me.
until the very day i die.
i am me.

-on the jukebox-
miss independent

|you walked away yesterday| 10:12 PM|
i thot everyting cld be changed.
i really thot so.
i tried to give everybody a chance.
apparently not.
correction.
it's obviously not.

goodbye.
goodbye to tis friendship.
goodbye to tis story with a happy beginning
n a tragic ending.
goodbye
|you walked away yesterday| 10:06 PM|
why muz such tings always happen to me?
is tis a joke? ot is tis a prank?
wad type of games r u all playing?
can u all juz stop it.

u r critical. u critisize.
but ve u ever look at urself n ACTUALLY discover u ve flaws too
or have u seen urself as the perfect!
or at least frm tis yr.
u changed. i feel it.
u were different frm beginning of tis yr.
u tink bad mouthing pple is fun.
dun u? u tink it's cool.
and sum follower will juz follow u.
u like to lead. to dominate. to rule.
u like the sense of power.
dun u?

u sae other pple r hypocrites.
cos dae bad mouth me too.
but do u actually realise u r one too.
it's easy to complain others. but do u actually notice urself.
u r not perfect. u r not even close to perfect. u ll never be perfect.
stop being so proud of urself.

u r a hypocrite too. do u ever realise.
i bet u din.
cos sum pple worship u.
well.
who dose who worship her
no. there's only one who worship her.
she bad mouthed u too.
did u ever realise tt.

bet u din.
it's ez to bad mouth.
duh.
it hurts. badly.
do u noe.

u sae u r depressed.
very in fact.
so u make others depressed too.
uh huh.
is tis sum way of destressing.
it's not working.
u love suan-ing pple.
dun u.
u like pple admiring u.
face the fact. u love it.
i dun.
SO?!

is bad mouthing ur hobby?
or izzit bcos im juz too annoying.
i thot u said everything WAS ok.
apparently not.

u changed.
tt gal changed.
i changed.

why do u love torturing me.
or at least my feelings.
why. why. why.
dun u feel the least guilty. dun u. dun u.
im asking u a qn. dun u!!!

thanks for the pple who was there todae.
u made my day.
i bet sum of u dun even noe i was upset.
nobody noes.
im a gd actress. covering up everyting.

thanks to the wonderful pple who did the [confrontation]
thanks to charlene. for being there. n ur miserable star.
thanks to wanni and qin yi. for being with me.
thanks to tabbi for the beautiful stars. n the nail polish.
thanks to the pple who taught me to be stronger.

finally.
thanks to the gal who always manage to upset my day.
hypocrite.
not bcos of the past incident.
but of the incident u did today.
thank you.

|you walked away yesterday| 7:47 PM|
hectic week.
no time. muz work hard liao
heart breaks.

juz discovered there's nobody i can trust in the class
scary.
no form of trust.
fine. shirlynn says i can trust her.
fine.

|you walked away yesterday| 8:31 AM|

Sunday, June 01, 2003
Germany
Germany -
Despite a controversial recent history, it has had
a tough and powerful history. A modern-day
technological and cultural beacon, it is still
target to stereotypes and antiquited thoughts.

Positives:

Technologically Advanced.

Culturally Admired.

Global Power.

Negatives:

Target of Historical Fervor.

Constant Struggle.

Funny-Looking Ethnic Clothing.

Which Country of the World are You?
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ok. wad is tis. totally crappy here.
so sleepy. wanna sleep.
but i can't sleep until 12.
wad logic is tis.
sigh.
m tempted to peel my skin.
but joan says will leave scars.
hmm.
temptation. [island]

-on the jukebox-
all star: smash mouth

|you walked away yesterday| 10:45 PM|

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